Delusions of Grandeur.

It has been exactly a month since I last wrote and I felt that it was about time that I posted again.  The past few weeks have been a whirlwind of exercise, cheap vodka, artificial sunlight and fromage frais and I don't know quite how I feel about it.  I've had some amazing times with some wonderful people, but I can't help to think that it's time to calm myself down for a while and aim for a little more than just looking like a Saturday and behaving like a Lohan.

I've used the phrase "crisis of character" a lot in the past couple of weeks (I'm not sure if I made it up, but it seems fitting) because I don't think I like myself anymore.  I know, I know it just sounds so thoroughly self-involved and melodramatic - quelle surprise - but it's just so difficult to be alive when you're unsure if you're a nice person or not!  I haven't made much of a plan to remedy the situation yet because I'm relying on winning the Lottery in the next month or so and using my winnings to do some good in the world.

The money would come in pretty handy for myself too - I won't manage to be totally selfless instantly!  There are just so many beautiful things that I have my eye on at the moment:

Black Eyelash Lace Trim Runner Shorts - £30, Topshop

Laurie bra, briefs, suspender and skirt - £540, Agent Provocateur

Leather Studded Rider - $845, UNIF

Hermès Vanille Galante - £140

Fake Chic crystal ring - £460, Yves Saint Laurent

"Hussy" teacup - $25, trixiedelicious @Etsy.com

Need to get back to watching Three in a Bed, scoffing at this thread on mumsnet.com and waiting patiently for my fortune.

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