I AM OBSESSED WITH THIS.

Highlights of my time in London :

First row at Les Misérables

Rust Shawl Collar Blazer - £65, Topshop

Ridged Stone Ring - £10, Topshop

Goat's Cheese Tart, Scallops, and Sauvignon Blanc at Villandry

Tom Ford Private Blend Lip Colour in Blush Nude - £35, Selfridges

Wandering aimlessly in my favourite museum and going to see the Imperial Chinese Robes exhibition.  The embroidery was spectacular and the furs were divine - I'd kill for a Sable like the winter one belonging to Emperor Kangxi.

I hear I'm really hard to buy gifts for so if you're struggling, here's what I really want for my birthday:

Breitling Super Avenger Diamond Watch.

Price on request - surely I'm worth it, no?

I'm going to London tomorrow, it's pretty last minute but I still managed to get a really cheap train ticket.  I have to be on the train by 06:50 and I can already see it being a bit of a struggle.  I'm going to get a couple of movies from the iTunes store tonight (probably Winter's Bone and The Illusionist) and I really hope there is Wifi on the train, as 5h 51 offline would be almost impossible for me.

I don't have very much planned for my stay, but I'll be going with my dad so I'll eat at lovely restaurants and plenty of shopping is to be expected.  I really want to go to the V&A also to see the "Imperial Chinese Robes from the Forbidden City" exhibition and as pathetic as it sounds I always, always enjoy a trip to Wholefoods.  I'm so excited for one to open in Glasgow, but I'll need a car to get there.  Just saying...

Hopefully this trip will be a delight and go without any minor hiccups or major emotional breakdowns before/during/on the street outside Les Miserables!

"divinely dazed"

I started a book yesterday and these two words stood out to me in the first chapter, though I think I read it out of context.  It referred to priests but I just thought that it was so lovely and decided to apply it to myself - I've always loved alliteration.  I'm constantly in a daydream of some sort; I'm a huge thinker and I get distracted easily.  I have so much going on in my head that I'm not the best to converse with as it can be difficult to keep track of the numerous tangents that I go off on.

I sometimes fear falling off of the treadmill at the gym because my mind is other places or I'm too busy looking around at other people.  I find it really difficult to focus and the only thing that really seems to help is playing certain music really loudly.  These are some of my favourite songs that are helping me right now:

At first I was pretty disappointed with "Born This Way" because I thought it was so awfully cringey and just nothing like I wanted from Gaga, but now I love it.  It's so upbeat and catchy and I can't help but to smile when I hear it - I really am a sucker for some inspirational lyrics.

As much as I love my MBTs for walking, I'm starting to find them a little heavy to wear when exercising.  I saw these in a magazine last week and I think I'm going to get them in the next couple of months:

They are the Reebok Easytone Reeinspire trainers and they cost £101 with my chosen customisation; which I think is very beautiful although I'd have preferred the gold to be slightly more gold!  Oh gosh I am just so fit and healthy - I'm going for a cigarette to reward myself.

I said to myself that I wouldn't go to bed tonight until my room was clean and tidy and, although I left it until around 10PM to stop being distracted by everything and actually start putting things away, it's finished.  I won't dread waking up tomorrow and being surrounded by clothes, dishes and magazines strewn all over the place and I'll hopefully have an amazing sleep.  During cleaning I discovered that I had a fairly sizeable amount of our dishes in my bedroom:

4 wine glasses
9 mugs
2 plastic beakers
7 spoons
2 knives
1 fork
2 bowls
3 glasses
and a ramekin

How sick is that?!  That's probably not even the worst haul ever.  I'm just waiting for my sheets to finish drying and so I decided to do a comedy take on the popular  "What's in my bag?" post:

Highlights include:

15 tea bags - Slim Plus and Green tea
Nars Orgasm blush, Hoola by Benefit bronzer, Viva Glam Gaga 1 and Impassioned lipsticks by M.A.C
4 packets of cigarettes (3 are empty)
Moleskine and 2 Sharpies
iPod
Teeth whitening gel
Stain removing wipes
Airwaves Cherry Menthol chewing gum and Werther's Original candies

I'm disgusting I know - my manager points it out every time I leave the shop, as she has to check my bag to make sure I'm not stealing shoe polish or insoles or something.  I'll sort it out one of these days.

I absolutely hate my birthday. To anyone who knows me and knows how much I love being the centre of attention this will come as a shock but, anyone who really knows me won't be too surprised. I hate the pressure of birthdays, I hate having a party and forcing my friends to celebrate ME and I hate the idea of things not being perfect.  I've always been like this and until last year I've never had a birthday party when I haven't been in a huff and ruined everything for myself.

My parents are so in love with birthdays though and I've always had the most lovely parties, the magicians of the moment and the best dresses but if one tiny detail didn't go exactly how I'd imagined I'd be devastated.  These huffs have ranged from crying in the corner to full on diva fit and it's something I'm definitely not proud of - I was a brat.

Something I was laughing about the other day was looking back to my Pocahontas Party when I was 6 and I wasn't allowed the prize even though I'd won musical bumps (I have always been very competitive) because my Mum said it was rude to win at my own party.  Nothing could cheer me up; not my friends, not the bouncy castle and not even the cake!

From then on there have been celebrations of various scales which I have built up in my head and have always managed to destroy but last year was different.  I had a night out like I'd have any normal night out and it was drama free and just nice.  I don't like the idea of being responsible for other people having a good time and I hate having to circulate amongst a large group.

So I'm going to be 21 and I'm hoping to let the whole thing quietly pass by with a meal and a cake and a little time off work.  That's the plan so far, but being well aware of what I'm like, I'll probably have a major huff if someone doesn't plan me a My Super Sweet 16 style surprise blowout!

Nail update:

Dream girl.

Yeah, I'm not exactly lovely right now but these are my gorge nails.  Nails are my obsession du jour and I'm stocking up on loads of rhinestones, glitter and heart & bow shapes from eBay.  I don't find embellished nails to be a hinderance at all (although I've had to replace a few little gems from putting deliveries away and generally working so hard) - I just can't stop looking at them!  I feel like a little princess.

I've had them on since lunchtime on Tuesday and I'm planning on keeping them on until at least Sunday when I'll have a day off to come up with something new.  I might add some extra hearts tonight because I want to look so bling for Thunder Disco Club tomorrow night.  It's another friend's birthday, I know I'm super popular, and she's just so lovely and always thinking of others that I just want her to have the best time.  Obviously my nails will contribute to that...

Joking, Cici is currently baking up one of her famous three-tiered cakes and I'm not going to eat all day tomorrow just so that I can have a massive slice

P.S. If anyone wants to comment at some point that'd be totally cool with me.

I woke up this morning with my skin a rather lovely shade of brown slightly orange, my teeth a perfect shade of white and both my fingernails and toenails were beautiful.  On my hands I'm wearing Frou Frou and on my feet I have Holographic, both by GOSH - I'd post a picture but my feet are gross.  I'm really into nails and especially love duochrome polishes, anything with a bit of glitter and I have such a need for nail embellishments right now.

I found out about the Maybelline Valentine's Day nail collection from 2009 this week:

It was only available, along with clear and pink versions, for a short amount of time and so I have been consumed with finding an alternative.  Luckily my hunt has led me to discover Nicole for OPI and Have a Heart which in turn led me to discover the "One Less Lonely Girl" collection by Justin Beiber.  He's so  cute and this makes me like him even more. The polishes are lovely and different and the names are brilliant: 

"Step 2 the Beat of My Heart" is definitely my fave because it has multi-coloured hearts in it and I'm always a fan of numbers replacing words.  The collection is in support of Pencils of Promise which aims to build schools and increase education in developing countries.  Did I mention that I think he is an absolutely lovely wee boy?!

I don't really know why I watch Glee, because I think I hate it; it makes the cringe so much and I despise almost all of the characters.  I don't find it empowering and it only makes me wish I had gone to school with a babe like Brittany.  I realise almost everything I either write about or talk about is T.V. related, but there genuinely isn't much else going on in my life.

Tuesdays are my favourite nights because I have a strict schedule which takes me right from 18:30 when I get in from work until about 11ish, allowing me to go to sleep at a respectable hour.  Unfortunately for the past two weeks I've been required to leave my flat and socialise on a Tuesday evening which messes everything up for the rest of the week.

This seems to be becoming my new routine as tomorrow I'm going out to Sub Club for a friend's birthday.  I can't really afford to buy anything new so I'll just have to recycle horrible, washed out things that I've worn a billion times.  I'm thinking of just wearing a plain black maxi skirt and a little white t-shirt as a pre-season attempt at my favourite look for S/S 2011; a basic cotton tee worn with a dramatic, floor skimming skirt as seen at Jil Sander:

Photo credit Elle UK

Obvs I'm not as cute and tiny as lovely Chanel Iman and won't be able to spend £580 on a fluoro-pink maxi, but I'll give it a go in monochrome with some DIY bling nails.  I'm planning to paint them with a couple of coats of Frou Frou by GOSH tonight and add some diamantés and a glittery topcoat in the morning.  I'm exceptionally tacky, someone propose to me so I can have a wedding like the gypsies.

Some of my favourite photos from the Wildfox Couture Spring 2011 lookbook:

I love the beautiful models, I love the pastel colours and all of the bows and especially the postcards.  I really want to be a Wildfox girl and I'm hoping I can earn enough money over the next few months so that I can afford a few things.  

See more here.

I woke up at 3AM to go for a drink of Ribena and a few jelly babies, before I went back to sleep I decided to check Twitter as you just never know what you've missed in 3 hours.  I was glad I did because I saw the new US Vogue March 2011 cover with my babe Lady Gaga.

Photo Credit: FanPop.com

I think I quite like it; her body looks amazing and her hair colour is pretty sweet but it's all still looking a little too "Alejandro" for me - I just want to see that lovely tan and her platinum blonde wig make a return.  I'd have preferred her cover to look a little like Britney for W Magazine in August 2003:

Photo Credit: W Magazine

Or herself for "944" in January 2010:

Photo Credit: JustJared

Or "Maxim" in July 2009 which I was so obsessed by:

Photo Credits: Amy Grindhouse

I'm really excited that Gaga is back though and can hardly wait until "Born This Way" is premiered at the Grammy's.  She posted the lyrics on her Twitter account last Thursday and I really hope she goes for this look:

I hate that tattoo but LOVE that jacket.

I totally want to start taking outfit photos and showing all of you (3) readers how amazing I look, however I woke up this morning, put on a boring black dress and went to work.  Then on my way home I got soaked by the rain and blown about by the gail force winds.  It's not exactly a good idea to take a lovely b&w photo of myself right now either, as I'm currently sitting in tartan pyjama trousers and a massive hoodie eating Wotsits and specially selected candies from Haribo Kiddie's Super Mix.  If I put in the effort though, I can show you how amazingly average I look - generic babe.

The shop was really quiet today and I ate my body weight in mini brownies and mini muffins.  We hardly sold anything and I spent my entire day completing menial tasks and hanging out.  My New Year's resolution was to stop showing off at work, but I actually only lasted about a day as I got really bored.  My colleagues humour me and seem to enjoy my terrible dancing and ridiculous anecdotes.  I lap up the attention and enjoy constantly having an audience but if I wasn't myself I just know that I'd be someone I hate.

It's my day off tomorrow and plans include going to the gym in the morning, making Parsnip and Ginger soup, possibly some baking and a bit of housework.

P.S. The new series of Skins is so bad - I'm constantly cringing and finding the heavy metal soundtrack tonight to be a total racket.

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I love this.

Things I luv right now:

• Peach & Raspberry flavoured sparkling water from Sainsbury's
• Walking around like a little lady with my leopard print, chain strapped handbag
• GOSH nail polish in Frou Frou 
• L'Oréal Smoothing Resurfacing Primer - makes me look like I was born with good skin and helps my make-up to stay on all day at work
• My recent dedication to the gym and the unbeatable feeling after exercise
• All the new season stock coming into the shop
• Unashamedly spending a whole day catching up on loads of TV online
• Mussels in Garlic and Shallot Butter
• Multi Packs of Wotsits and French Fries for £1

Things I H8 right now:

• Multi Packs of Wotsits and French Fries for £1
• My increased desire for carbs
• The fact that my shower keeps clogging
• Lazy people
• Green Apple scented cleaning products
• (Teen) Sex programmes on my TV, I'm proud to be a prude and these people are gross
• Coughing so bad that I drank a 3/4 of a bottle of Purple Drank (Ok, Blackcurrant Benylin) in my 20 minute tea break
• Bitchiness at work
• Green Tea keeping me awake at night
• Valentine's Day